Ashley's Awesome Admisson Area

[Ashley Underwood]

HECK YES! I've been waiting for this to be open for a while - I mean, stuff has already happened and the game hasn't even begun - it's pretty crazy. I mean, I communicated pre-game in my last game too, but whatever. Still interesting to see what happens that ended up being useless and what may still aid me in the future.<br><br>Alrighty, so honestly, I didn't expect to communicate much pregame since there wasn't a list of AIMs up like there was in my first - but people decided to use the proboards messaging system, a function completely lost upon me previously, but now it's actually proving to be useful! Yay!<br><br>Nadiya, Jefra and Jon all decided to approach me seperately for messages, which was...pretty nice, really. Although, as much as I'd love to delude myself that it's just because I'm completely awesome that they approached me, I'm well aware that there's a 99 out of 100 shot that they just decided to message everyone. If I'm honest, I'm not sure if messaging everyone like that is a savvy move or not. Sure, it gets conversations going, but I guess it makes you look a little bit aggressive. I suppose I'm a bit hypocritical here, since, heck, I sent out some messages of my own to some randoms out of boredom later on, but we'll get to that in due time.<br><br>I'll talk about these guys in order of importance.<br><br>Nadiya...I mean, she's kind of funny and all, but really, she kind of annoys me. She seems too enthusiastic about everything and it comes across fake to me. <br><br>If I'm honest, I'm kind of just pretending to be stupid and dimwitted in front of everyone, because that always works. If people think you're stupid and manipulable, they want to keep you around and work with you. If you start thinking for yourself, that's when people start getting annoyed and wanting you out. I don't particularly want anyone to want me out, so I'll keep the thinking to myself in here for now. <br><br>I think this chick<i>(Nadiya)</i> thinks that I think she's the bomb, and honestly, I don't. I think she's going to get annoying very quickly. She basically already asked me not to vote her out first again, since, well, she just got owned on<i>, </i>well, actual<i> </i>Survivor. I kind of dodged the question and replied with <i>"Well I don't see josh around here so you should be fine xD".</i> She may have caught on to that, but anyways, the way I phrased it, I'd like to think, anyways, gives a bit of a "i'm not voting for you at least " feeling.

It's not that I'm against people bringing up strategy this early - I'm not, and I've already begun talks with someone, actually - but we'll get to that later. I'm just against annoying people. I don't really want someone in the game who not only annoys me, but probably doesn't actually like me that much themselves. I suppose they could, but I'm getting the vibe that they don't like me much right now. I need to learn to trust my first instinct on things and not second guess myself - my gut instinct is usually dead on and then I end up convincing myself that it's wrong later. My gut instinct? Not to trust her.

I'm not going to be targeting her early or anything - that would be incredibly moronic of me. But if anyone brings up her name should us girls have to go to tribal? Hell to the no am I going against it. I'll go along with it pretty happily.

Anyways, enough about her. I've talked to Jon, and I really like the guy. I get genuine vibes from the guy, and evidently, this is his first real ORG, so that's cool, since this is only my second. We have a couple other things in common as well, and I think we get along pretty well! I'm pretty sad I'm not on the same tribe as him, if I'm honest, but alas, what can I do? Since cross-tribe communication isn't allowed, I can't really keep on watering that bond, so I'm just going to have to hope that should we meet again, that he'll still like me. There's not much to talk about with regards to him. I like him. He's cool. I wish I could work with him, but that's impossible at this point in time. Darn.

But, we have the beautiful and amazing Jefra, who I also love! Honestly, she's pretty freaking cool. I'm happy as heck we're on the same tribe - even though we both discussed how we were hoping it was not going to be men vs women. Unfortunately we ended up with that anyways. But, I ended up with her, and that's fine with me, since she's pretty freaking awesome. I didn't think we clicked much until she suggested talking on AIM - and we did, however first I had a huuuge messup with my AIM and I had to ask my friend to make a new one for me because it just simply wouldn't work out for me. My feelings were irreversibly hurt, and I don't know if I can ever trust AIM again after what they did to me. I think I'm going to get a restraining order.

We ended up talking though, and we both really got along with Jon. She wanted to have a showmance with him, which was pretty cute - there wasn't anything like that in my first season. I mean we had a guy who was obsessed with being the most flamboyant over the top version of Chet ever, but something like this isn't as annoying as Chet was. It's actually rather adorable. She also liked Spencer and wanted me to hook up with him, alol. I've never spoken to the dude yet - but I did send him a message...which is now pointless since we're split up into tribes. DARNIT. Well. A for effort, Ash, A for effort.

With Jefra, I think we get along pretty well, though I am trying to seem stupid around her because I kind of pinpointed her as the chick who I want to follow around for a while and seem like their loyal servant. I basically asked her if she thought I should message Spencer and a whole bunch of other stuff, I wanted to give her the impression that she controls me and that I'll do whatever she wants! And honestly I will for now because she's pretty cool and I want to work with her for a while. I do, however, think she's pretty smart and knows what she's doing. She's a bit of a schemer, but I don't really care. You can control smart people by making yourself seem useful to them.

Anyway, I think she sees me as an asset - although, since I shared things Jon said with me to her(well, just one message) she claimed that Jon wasn't that nice to her. Oops! Well, sorry. I may have accidentally seemed like a social threat to her by total accident, which is unfortunate, but whatever, he's not here anymore so hopefully she doesn't have to worry about that and just wants to work with me. We actually discussed getting an alliance of me+her+spencer+jon going, which would have been great - even though I haven't talked to Spencer yet I really think I can trust Jon, and Jefra...well, I can trust her for now, I hope. Sadly that got blown to bits by you, Probst. It's so weird having Jeff as a host. I had three hosts last game and none of them were Jeff. It's a strange, strange experience transitioning.

Well, ultimately, I think she thinks I can be useful because we talked a LOT and it was awesome because I love the chick and I think we have a good number of shit in common, and she kept on messaging me and trying to talk to me, which...I like to think is a good sign? I did the same with her a bit, and each time there was a pause thirty minutes later one of us would try and get it going again, haha. So that's wonderful. Means she probably likes me and wants to keep me around, which is, well, obviously a good thing. She lives in a totally different timezone, so she's offline right now, but hopefully we can get an alliance going on this tribe. I definitely want to work with her. I'm not so sure she's getting along with other people very well, which...could be troublesome, but I like her, so hopefully enough other people do too to get something started.

I want her to take the reigns, and she certainly has been - I like the way she plays. She basically brought up the alliance to me already and I was all for it! No way in hell am I starting alliances, I don't want the target on my back, lol. But she can do it, and I'm fine with that. If she starts an alliance and I'm in it, boom, I'm safe. If she starts an alliance and it fails? Well, she's target #1 and I have a round to try and save my butt. Personally, I'm much happier playing second-in-command, or even third, than first, at least this early on. I can start making moves later on once I'm comfortable in my connections and my social game. Which I'm not right now since I've barely talked to half of these people. Social game first. I can worry about my trainwreck of a strategic game later.

Anyhow, I tried to talk with some people, but none of them seemed receptive. I got bored and just messaged some people I saw online - I wonder if that was a bad move, selectively messaging instead of messaging everyone? I dunno, to be honest. I think I probably should have messaged everyone, after thinking about it, but meh. Not much I can do about my terrible decision-making skills at the time. Coach...didn't seem receptive. I think he's going to be a schtick-guy and try too hard to be Coach. And while I love Coach, you can't imitate Coach. There's no way he can compare to the real one, sorry not sorry. He doesn't seem to like me much, so I really don't care that I'm not on the same tribe as him. Bye bye, dude.

I also spoke with Rudy - He asked me to talk with him on AIM last night, but my AIM was TOTALLY borked so I couldn't! UGH.

There was some other guy I messaged that I can't recall - that's how unmemorable they were. Let me go back and check. ...Oh, apparently I didn't message another male. That's why I couldn't remember. Strange. Well, I did message Kathy, and that's...an interesting situation, since I'm fairly sure I know her. I don't want to take pregame connections into consideration, but I'm keeping an eye on her because if she's who I think she is, she's batshit insane. I'm not going to judge her based on our prior game together, because I know that I wouldn't people to judge me for the horrible paranoid insane bitch I was in my first game. But I am keeping an eye on her, because she's...well...wacko, to put it simply. She's basically Pete Yurkowski. She stirs the most random shit for no reason whatsoever other than she was bored. I hope she's not going to do that here and that she's changed, but...we'll see. :x

I figured it out since the Kathy from my previous and first game, went on a trip to Turkey. And where is this Kathy? Oh, Istanbul...which is in Turkey. And they type the same. And are using the exact same representative. Way to be subtle, girl. Welp. I DID like her and get along with her in game last time, so I don't have anything against her even though she's nuts. I'm not going to reveal my identity to her unless necessary, because I don't want shit like that to take too much hold in the game. Oh, and also it would be annoying if people figured out who I was because then they would all hate me and want me out immediately for all the shit I talk and how paranoid and bad I am at my strategic game. Merp. I kind of have a tendency to imitate the typing style of the person I'm talking to, so...other people kind of rub off on me, so chances are I'll become sort of incognito, typing wise, after a while. Hopefully. I really don't want anything to come back to haunt me alol.

Those are really the only people I've conversed with at this point. I hope I can talk with people more on AIM, I think I'm way more interesting in live conversation than I am via messaging, so hopefully we can get some AIM convos going with everyone on the tribe and make them all love me to death. <3 I'm a bit sad Jonathan isn't on this tribe, though, the guy seems pretty freaking hilarious. Oh well. Maybe we can meet up in the future.

I think there was about one more thing I wanted to bring up, but that's it for now until I recall. Laters!

Oh hey, the challenge thing is up. Fun. This should be interesting~ ANYWAYS I'M FINALLY DONE NOW GOODBYE SIR

[Ashley Underwood]

Okay never mind I think I'm doing horribly socially what the heck is wrong with me I thought I was good at this. I think I might be the most annoying and boring person in the history of the earth right now and I have absolutely no idea how to cure it. I think I just made Danielle and Gina hate me which is rather unfortunate because I like the both of them. Ugh.

Seriously, I feel like I'm basically stumbling around like a drunk in my conversations hoping to finally say something that will get conversation going but I feel like they're just disinterested in communicating with me which is unfortunate since I like Gina and she's funny. And Danielle's cool I guess, I haven't talked to her all that much yet.

I get that this is a lesson to not get arrogant so early or something, but ugh. We have Allie and Sugar who seem to be inactives - Danielle brought that up to me and it's true so even if I'm somehow doing terribly hopefully I have a round or two to...well...fix whatever it is that I'm doing terribly wrong because I swear these girls don't like me much.

I tried bringing up stuff about the challenge in the tribe thread and...Danielle was the only one who bothered. Like uh hello do you girls even want to win? I don't want to take the leadership role or anything, but I'd certainly rather not lose and go to tribal. That would just suck. I'm going to give it my all in challenges because I want to A): Make myself seem useful so I don't get my ass booted and B): I'd rather not have us go to tribal at all.

I don't understand why they wouldn't at least try and discuss their skills. Winning is important. Winning is fun. Winning is great. I've only won two tribal immunity challenges and I'd really like to add on to that repertoire, thanks guys, really.

Okay so, in the middle of writing this up I think my social prowess magnified by 100. I seriously really like Danielle, I think she likes me, too - she even asked me if she thought alliances were being formed and I was like lolidk. If she trusts me enough to ask me that, maybe we can work together. I hope so. Her and Jefra are awesome. Gina's cool but I don't think she likes me so she's whatever. Take her or leave her.

Speaking of Gina, I don't think she understands how an alias game works. I think she's using her real name for her AIM. But. You know. Whatever I guess? Same with Natalie. I don't know any Natalies named Brandon Clark. Weiiiird. But, you know, whatever.

Kathy is...I think she figured out who I was. Which is troubling. It MIGHT be a good thing, but it could also be really freaking bad. Leet's just say she said a comment that seemed to be implying it, and I might just be looking too much into things, but yeah. I think she figured out who I am and that's just not a good situation. Hopefully she decides to like me instead of target me or something, because I'm not targeting her or anything, at least not at this point. I'd honestly like to work with her if possible, although I really don't want my identity to come out. UGH THIS SUCKS SO MUCH.

Me and Danielle seem to be open to volunteering for speed - and Kathy wants to do popularity because she's...feeling adventurous. Okay. Even though she thinks it could be a tribe swap or something random like that. I'm assuming she doesn't like our Taytay tribe much. I kinda like it, if I'm honest. Nadiya is kind of weird and I don't think Gina likes me, but besides that everyone seems to be cool so far, from who I've talked to. I've yet to talk to invisible Allie or crying Sugar or flossing Natalie, so we'll see if they're insane or not. Hopefully it's the latter. Although, I do indeed hope at least one of them never shows up so we have at least one fodder boot to protect me.

I wish someone would talk strategy to me besides Jefra - I'm getting scared, frankly. Danielle did ask me which girls I liked and she said she liked Gina and Kathy, and I agreed and said I liked Jefra too but hadn't talked to her much...which obviously is a total lie since me and Jefra talked for like two hours yesterday. I don't want to leave her on the outs if possible, but if I HAVE to I'll ditch her, but I'd really rather not, you know what I mean? So maybe Danielle will try and form something, which would be cool. I'd like to be in an alliance of Danielle, myself, Jefra, and I dunno, I guess Gina and Kathy right now. I like the latter two but I'm not sure if they like me, which is what worries me more than anything else.

I'm just, honestly, desperate to not be first boot right now and to get my ass in an alliance. I think being REALLY active and having a lot of free time will be beneficial because that means I can probably even have convies with the inactives, you know? And that way people will talk to me and hopefully invite me to alliances over some random person who's barely on. I have at least that going for me. I'm probably going to be on for most of the day, and this day is going to be the most important when it comes to avoiding being voted off and to getting myself into an alliance. We have, what, today, tomorrow, and the day after if we go to tribal. Hmmn. I'm hoping I can get into an alliance today, but we'll see what happens.

What worries me is that the guys seem to be a hella lot more active than us, last night I saw SEVEN OF THE MEN ON AT ONCE and I was the only girl and I'm like uh okay this isn't looking good for us. That's scary, because that means they have the lead VERY much so when it comes to challenges. I hope we can pull through and kick their asses anyways, but I'm not going to try to get arrogant and cocky, because that just doesn't work out for me. I just hope that I can seem valuable enough to keep around and to put in an alliance. If I DON'T get any alliance offers within the next two days...yeah, screw this tribe.

The lack of cross tribe communication sucks since I wanted to talk to Spencer but oh well. Hopefully they boot Carter or something, me and Kathy discussed this and we've decided the smug look he has in his picture is just annoying and we want him to go away. I kind of agree, to be honest, he looks like the pilot of douche airlines in that pic.

Also I really like the fact that treemail is a thing here. My last game didn't have it and we just went straight to the challenge so this is actually pretty cool - gives us time to plan. Well. I'm TRYING to plan, anyways, but no one seems receptive but Danielle, bless her freaking heart I love her. I hope I'm at least in an alliance with her and Jefra, that would be perfect. I think I can trust Danielle. We'll see if that's misplaced or not soon. I also get honest vibes from Gina, but like I said, I don't think she likes me. Kathy is...Kathy is crazy and I know that. I just have to hope she doesn't screw everything up for fun.

It's actually a very GOOD thing cross tribe communication isn't allowed because she(Kathy) would go to the other tribe and tell them everything possible if she could. I mean, I don't blame her for doing random stuff for lulz - I'm tempted to do that too sometimes, but when I'm playing to win, and I am, currently, (that's subject to change if things start looking bad for me,) it's annoying to have other people go do stuff like that.

[Ashley Underwood]

...Apparently Kathy is trying to get people to throw the challenge just to vote me out.

What in the fuck? Simply because she knows who I am she wants me out. I think she's brain damaged or something. Apparently she has Allie Jefra and Natalie on board and I'm like...what the hell?

AND SHE'S PHOTOSHOPPING SCREENSHOTS THAT I WANTED DANIELLE OUT

IS THIS BITCH INSANE? WHAT IN THE HOLY FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE DO THEY EVEN UNDERSTAND HOW THIS GAME WORKS

LIKE IS IT NOT IN THE RULES TO KEEP PAST SHIT OUT OF THE GAME AND HERE COMES KATHY AND IT'S LIKE HOLY CRAP SHE SUCKS ASS What a fucking skank I want to kill her

[Ashley Underwood]

NO APPARENTLY DANIELLE IS A LUNATIC AND JUST TOLD GINA THAT I WANTED GINA OUT WHICH ISN'T TRUE WTF

DANIELLE IS SPREADING A WHOLE BUNCH OF NONSENSE FOR NO REASON I AM GOING TO STRANGLE HER EVEN THOUGH THIS IS ACTUALLY KIND OF HILARIOUS BUT I'M ALSO REALLY PISSED THE HELL OFF

WHO IS THE INSANE ONE? DANIELLE? KATHY? BOTH OF THEM? WTF IS THIS SHIT AND WHY AM I HERE I FEEL LIKE I SHOULDN'T EVEN BE ON THIS PLANET ANYMORE

And now the wacko just deleted her account.

THANK FUCKING GOD SHE'S GONE

Now please don't let her be right about Kathy plotting against me I really doubt it bc she was saying random shit to everyone but holy fuck this is scary

[Ashley Underwood]

This is seriously a miserable experience. I kind of believe Danielle because she said Kathy was targeting me because we played together before, and I totally believe that she would do that, and it makes it believable too since I know I've played with her. She(Kathy) sounded panicked as hell when I confronted her, and I'm really worried. I do NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT want to go to tribal right now. AT ALL AT ALL. I would rather get Ebola.

I'm like 80% sure I'd be the first boot and that my ass is getting played here, and technically I'm not being played since I don't believe these assholes, which really is not fun to think about. I'd like to think they'd be smart and eliminate Sugar. Objectively, I should be kept over that invisible chick if we have to go, but stupid people do stupid ass things and I think I may have fucked up my chances of staying when I was being bitchy to Kathy because I was believing Danielle. Fuck my life Danielle fucked me up so hard I hate her.

Jesus christ this sucks.

[Ashley Underwood]

<img style="max-width:100%;" src="http://vidcaps.immunityidol.net/albums/redemption/2201/normal_Ep2201_1080.jpg" alt=""><br><br>Yeah this game is proving to be very confusing. Today in particular was rather horrible, Jesus. As I said earlier...Danielle...she wasn't all there, so to speak, so she's been shipped off to a mental institution so she can't hurt anyone anymore. I have no idea what she was hoping to gain - I guess she was just trolling, but jeez, that really screwed me up and made me look like a total bitch. I'm playing really, really badly. I was playing, well, I'd like to <i>think</i> fine before she showed up and then she basically took my game, pissed all over it and then lit it on fire. Not a fun experience.<br><br>I really don't understand what I did to trigger Danielle's wrath over anyone else in the game. It kinda annoys me. Like, what did<i> I </i>do?<br><br>Thankfully, however, the psychopath has been replaced by someone much more sane and enjoyable, Erica. I actually really like her and I'm thanking god that Danielle is gone and Erica's replaced her. I'm trying to just wipe Danielle from my mind because the chick was wacked. She really screwed up my game by making me confront Kathy, and I honestly believed Danielle when she said Kathy was targeting me because she said it was because of a <i>"past game" </i>which I totally believed, since I know I've played with her before. I think she really could still be targeting me, which is...troublesome. I think I definitely borked up my relationship with her, no thanks to princess Danielle.

Although, do I really think Jefra would be targeting me? I mean, I certainly hope not, since she gave me immunity in the challenge(bless her heart i love her she's awesome) but that doesn't mean anything since we have inactive Sugar just waiting to get her head placed in the guillotine. She's not been on at all since the check in, so she's an easy first boot and that's pretty much the point of the nominations, I believe. It was agreed Sugar should be placed in, but Jefra's reasoning for placing Nadiya & Natalie in was "they're the last three on the memory wall." Um. Okay. I'm not complaining since I'm not like actually a part of that group, but that's kind of a silly reason and they're probably pissed. I know Nadiya is, I just talked to her and she wishes that Jefra at least told her, which...apparently she didn't alol. Why would you at least not try to PM her about your reasoning? Kiiinda bad since I want to work with Jefra, but whatever, people are pissed at her and not at me, so I'm totally happy about that! Don't be pissed at me and I'm happy.

But I do actually feel like I'm out of the loop with this tribe. I really feel like I'm not playing as strongly as I would like - I've already talked with Erica(who is awesome, although I think I'm being a bit too smart around her) more than I have every single person with the exception of Jefra. I'm pretty certain I'm on the outs of an alliance since while Jefra keeps talking about making an alliance, there's no doing happening, which honestly bothers me. I really don't want to have to visit tribal again after tonight, because that...could be very unfortunate. While I'm rather overjoyed that I'm certainly not going to be the first one gone, being the second one gone would still suck.

Erica is honestly very cool and it sucks she wasn't in the game to begin with, I feel like I have a lot in common with her(although I thought the same about Danielle and look where that got me) and she also seems to be really active, which is nice. I hope that I can work with her in some way, but yeah I'm getting the feeling that we're in the minority. It feels like everyone is avoiding strategy talk with me...or, well, any talk at all. And it's actually very irritating. I don't feel comfortable at all.

For example, I sent Natalie a message. They were online for two hours. They logged off without replying. Gee, thanks. And I had a short convo with Allie but she stopped rather quick and didn't seem very invested. Same goes for Gina. I'm a bit surprised I've possibly missed out on alliance making considering these people are never really online lol. It's very strange - in my last game I had a lot of active people and I was having conversations all the time. Here? I feel like I've stepped onto Mars, and it's worrying. I hope I'm not on the outs, but there's really no way for me to be confident that I'm not until I actually form an alliance with someone.

Jefra keeps saying she wants me, her, Allie, Gina and Kathy, which...I'd be fine with, although it worries me because I think I've pissed Kathy off, which, well, I totally don't blame her for being so. I hope I can rekindle our...relationship, and while she says it's all okay, I highly doubt she means it. I think she very well could be trying to vote me out, as Danielle basically came up to me after her...disappearance and said that I was "naive" so it's possible she WAS telling the truth, and if that's the case, things aren't looking so hot for me if we have to attend a second tribal council. I'm just going to hope we keep winning immunities until a swap because this tribe scares the bajeezus out of me. I don't want to have to flip, but right now I feel like no one likes me.

She also said that I needed to be a "bad bitch" and in my head, I'm like, um. Okay. I already am a bad bitch, but I don't really want people to know that, thanks. Please stop stalking me now. Thankfully she did. I hope she gets the help she needs.

Also, I'm not sure if I'm getting along with Nadiya or not. It's very confusing trying to talk with her because I can't tell if she's actually interested in conversing or if she's just talking to me out of boredom. She's trying way too hard to be Nadiya instead of herself, which is kind of annoying tbh. I get that people want to have fun but I'd still like to be able to actually talk to a person, you get what I mean?

[Ashley Underwood]

This tribe sucks.

Here's my conversations with people in a nut shell:

Me: Hey! What's up?
Other Person: not much *logs off*

I just wanted to join an alliance and be loyal to it unless people wanted to screw me but apparently that's too much to ask for because no one will freaking talk to me. I swear to god there's stuff going on behind my back and it's really not fun.

Please let there be a tribe switch or a mutiny, these people all hate me.

[JT]

By any chance did you play in Survivor Warriors Bermuda?

[Ashley Underwood]

Yep! I was Alina in that game <3 Hey Todd!

[JT]

I knew it right away once i saw the pic on top of a page long confessional lol.

[Ashley Underwood]

Hahaha, I guess I'm pretty obvious Oh well!

[Ashley Underwood]

You know how I've been complaining that no one on this tribe likes me? Yeah, let's forget I ever said that. Because immediately after I said that pretty much every single person on the tribe had to have a one on one convo with me. So that means SOMETHING, at least. If I was really being set up as a second boot I doubt they'd go through that effort, so I'm happy about this. Because like I said, I honestly like this tribe, even though it's kind of PMS everyone-hates-everyone central, I just got the feeling they didn't like me. If they like me then I'll stick with them, I just wasn't feeling the love or any of that nonsense before. Now I kinda am.

Basically, our tribe group chat is a giant clusterfuck with Nadiya and Natalie hating on each other all day long while Erica insults me and Natalie all day. It's...very strange. I know it's all in jest, but yeah, our group chat is not necessarily a sane place. There's no real conversation that happens. It's basically us just making fun of Danielle and jokingly(I hope so anyways lmfao) making fun of each other. It's kinda weird.

But even while our group chat was having a massive flurry of messages like half the tribe kept trying to talk to me one-on-one about various things, so that's pretty cool. Makes me feel a lot better about my position, even though I haven't really been inducted into an actual alliance, which...does scare me, tbh, but this tribe really isn't all that active with the exception of a few of us, most of us are pretty sporadic, activity wise, so I wouldn't be surprised if there wasn't even a major alliance yet, which is...strange to think about tbh.

Well, Nadiya approached me about wanting to work with me, and I replied I'm all for that, and I am, because, well, the only other person to talk strategy with me was Jefra and she really hasn't followed through with anything she said she would, lol...she's saying she's busy with another ORG or something I guess, which makes sense. She does keep in contact with me and she keeps talking to me, so that makes me think she still wants to work with me. The only person who isn't really talking to me is Allie, and I don't think Allie is talking with, well, anyone.

Oh yeah, and there's Sugar, but as I've said before, she doesn't count as a person.

I honestly like Nadiya now and think she's funny. She was kinda annoying at first, but she's grown on me. <3 I also really like Natalie - but it kind of worries me we could be coming across as a pair or something because we agreed on a bunch of stuff in group chat and Erica kind of messaged me "look at you and Natalie being BFFs" you jealous girl? But yeah, that's kinda scary but working with Natalie would be cool, we seem to have a bit in common and she seems like she actually likes talking to me.

Erica's talking to me less than she did on the first night, so she might not like me since she keeps jokingly saying how she wants to vote me out and honestly it's not as funny as she seems to think it is lol. It's kinda annoying and I hope she stops because that just makes me like ugh this chick is cray(we're all crazy though to be fair)

Gina just seems to be really quiet in general, so that's cool. I think she likes me but I think she just doesn't really go out of her way to message people all the time, so...yeah. Not sure how to go about that but I think I'm on okay terms with her.

To be honest, somehow, I think I'm on decent terms with Kathy too, we've kind of borderline talked about game talk, so that's fun. We haven't really gone THERE yet, but we've kind of brushed against the subject a little, and she was mainly the person to bring it up. Honestly, I'd rather work WITH her than AGAINST her, so I hope she does the same. Danielle just kind of screwed up my game and made me really paranoid, but thankfully she's gone.

Evidently she's some famous troll named jakbott or something who does this all the time and I was just the hapless victim this time. It's probably a good thing they're famous for doing this or some people might have actually believed the nonsense she was trying to sell.

Anyways, challenge results were supposed to be up last night but Ethan needed it to be extended for 24 hours so we're waiting for tonight now. Sugar, after 4 days, has yet to show up. Weiiird, but whatev, fine with me. It's an easy first boot. I don't really want to vote anyone else off at this point. If I had to pick, I'd just choose Allie because she seems rather anti-social in general whereas I've had(i like to think so, anyways) good convies with everyone else and like everyone else whereas I'm just neutral when it comes to Allie.

I really need to get my ass in an alliance but I feel like if I try instigating something and there IS an alliance I'll just come off as a threat so I'm just trying to make everyone like me and try to worm my way into one. This tribe is a clusterfuck. My first tribe in my last game was a clusterfuck, but this one is a clusterfuck for totally different reasons. Instead of having 90000 alliances, this tribe has...like none, afaik. And 9 crazy chicks. We need help. I have a feeling the men are going to woop our butts TBH. Scary thought. I hope they somehow vote out someone really strong in challenges in their first TC but I doubt it, they're probably just gonna go for Ethan. I kinda hope he wins because that would be lulzy, even though I like Jonathan and think he's funny. And I forgot who the other person they sent in even WAS, so that says a lot.

I wish there was more to write about, but there's really not much going on. This tribe is kind of zzzdead, for the most part.

[Ashley Underwood]

(I'd insert a picture here but the site I get them from isn't loading for me. Just...pretend. IMAAAGINATION!)

So that was weird. Sugar just got sent home...5-2. Apparently two people had the bright idea to send stray votes at Natalie, which...is clearly an attempt at causing chaos. It's pretty stupid, though. Like, I just plan on ignoring it. I'm not even going to bring it up or give the people who cast those votes the acknowledgement and chaos they so desperately seem to crave.

I'm a bit pissed people decided to do that, personally, but unfortunately, there's little that can be done about it now. I'm not even going to try to figure out who, and I easily could by asking people to claim what votes were theirs, but yeah, that would make me look like a massive bitch, which is not particularly something I want. I could if I wanted to, though.

I really don't think it was Kathy who did it..in Bermuda, her votes were basically drawn by the paintbrush option in MS paint or something, and both votes for Natalie weren't like that; One used a picture of Natalie's true identity(which they're not even bothering to hide like wtf this is an alias game girl you're cool and all but wtf at that) which automatically means that vote couldn't have been Kathy's, since she only has one ORG played, like me, and that ORG was Bermuda. They couldn't know Natalie well enough to cast that vote.

And the second...I guess it could be her, but I think she was the invisible sugar vote or the one which looked like it was kinda drawn. I think it was the invisible one since she was on mobile all day apparently, at least she was when she messaged me asking what the vote was for TC...so I assume her vote was that one. I don't think she'd have the time or ability to make a vote like either of the Natalie ones.

So I confided in her like "wtf are people doing casting stray votes" because I'm 99% sure she wasn't the person who cast one. Kind of funny, considering casting a stray vote seems right up her alley as something she'd do. But oh well, whatever. I think she trusts me because she messaged ME asking what the vote was. Not a bunch of people, just ME. So...that's flattering. I think I'm actually not in a bad position at all, which...is kind of sad to just learn NOW considering last night I tried forming an alliance on this tribe.

Yes. An alliance. On the TAYTAY TRIBE. THE FREAKING TAYTAY TRIBE!!! Can you believe it? I sure can't. That's about as rare an occurrence as a lunar eclipse.

Basically, I tried speaking with Nadiya since we had our pair thing going and I got bored of not actually being in an official alliance and decided to ask her if she wants to keep it just us or bring more people in so we can get ourselves a majority. I'm not sure if she was receptive or not - I mean, I think she was, but maybe this made me seem like a threat or something, I dunno. I certainly hope not.

She agreed, but wanted to make it seem like we weren't a pair. I mean, I had a thing going with Jefra but she's not even trying to get an alliance going, so...sorry girl, I moved on to Nadiya. I don't know why I ever thought this chick was annoying, she's hilarious. Anyways, I basically just let her pick names so I didn't seem like I was close with anyone else. I even said that she was the only person who really talked strategy with me(which is basically true, Jefra's the only other one and Kathy doesn't really count alol)

So yeah, she definitely didn't want Allie in due to inactivity - I feel kind of bad since she has pneumonia apparently, but, yeah, them's the breaks. Maybe she'll change her mind and want her in now that she knows she was just sick, but I hope not. I'd rather other girls fill in the blanks.

She doesn't want Kathy in either, because apparently she's hard to talk to. See, I don't get this. In Bermuda, people said the same thing about her, but I personally have conversations with her just fine! Like, why do people keep saying she's hard to talk to? I don't get it at all. I communicate with her perfectly fine. But whatever, fine, she's out too. We basically agreed on Erica would be a really good ally since she (I think so, anyways) likes both of us and we like her, boom. Our third. We just have to make sure she thinks it's her idea.

Our fourth we'd like to be what's her face, Gina. The other chick who doesn't really get how an alias game works, lol. Apparently Nadiya knows her and she's a big pregamer. Ew. That could be problematic if she already has people she knows in the game, but we've basically agreed she's trustworthy for now, but not necessarily the long term.

Our fifth will be Natalie or Jefra, via process of elimination. They think Natalie is more trustworthy but Jefra better in challenges. I mean, I'd take trustworthy over challenges any day of the week, but I do like Jefra a lot and would like her to be in the alliance. I mean, I like Natalie too, but me and Jefra talked a lot early on, but she hasn't been that active as of late, which is kind of unfortunate, so...ugh, I dunno what to do about her. We basically just agreed to wait until the outcome of the next challenge to see who's better and take them in.

So yeah, at this point if we do have to go to Tribal again, which hopefully isn't the case, as I have faith we'll beat Team Testosterone, the boot will be one of:

A): Allie, due to sickness and inactivity.
B): Kathy, because apparently she's hard to talk to but I don't get it but whatever, it's not me!
C): Me, The Ever So Angelic Ashley for some strange reason if everyone is playing me. Unlikely, but possible. I'd rather go in with low hopes and be pleased with the outcome instead of high hopes and get them crushed.

All in all, provided Nadiya doesn't screw me for some inexplicable reason, I think I'll be fine. I don't think she will, so that's nice.

We have a new challenge and it honestly sounds like something I'd be REALLY GOOD AT BEING THE ALPHA FOR but I don't want to take Jefra's crown if she wants it. Ugh. I bet I could rock it so hard though, I'm really good at long 24 hour challenges because of all my free time, but whatever. If she screws up and pisses people off then alol it's not me so I don't care too much. My loyalty right now is to Nadiya. It's not ALL there yet, I need her to prove herself a little to me first, but once a vote or two has gone our way and I trust her things will be great for us.

If we do lose though, I hope we don't vote out Kathy since I'm 99% sure she knows who I am and I'd rather she not blurt it out on her way out because she did something like that in Bermuda when she was voted out and basically blurted out a lot of stuff to sink the people who voted her out.

Actually I wanna know the answer to this.

WHEN SOMEONE IS VOTED OUT, ARE THEY ALLOWED TO POST IN TRIBAL AFTER SUCH?

The possibility of her doing that kinda scares me tbh so I hope Allie just stays really sick(yes, i'm a horrible person now and I'm going to hell. good thing I don't believe in it) so we can boot her if we go instead of Kathy.

Either way, when the challenge comes up I wanna do my best because I do not like tribal council. It freaking sucks. I don't want to get voted out and I don't want Kathy to go right now just because I know she can screw me. If she has to go, let her go in a swap while we're on totally different tribes or something. That could work out.

[Ashley Underwood]

Yeah, I really haven't written one of these in a while. #sorry. I've been kinda sorta busy, and there's just almost nothing happening in this game at...well, at all. These people NEVER TALK. Like I've tried to start one on one convies with people but nothing really ends up happening and it's like omfg. I'm really not very invested in this game because these people never really talk to me, and when they do, no one's being all that interesting. It's pretty miserable, if I'm honest.

So in my last post I discussed the forming of an alliance, and me and Nad basically made a trio with Erica - we've yet to bring two others in yet, because this tribe sucks and no one is ever fucking on. Like I'm on a lot but whenever I check my AIM everyone is either invisible or they're AFK until I finally leave, like, what? Cruel twist of fate after cruel twist of fate. Either way, she seems to be all for it and we all basically seem to be the only sane and reasonable people on this tribe of inactives and morons.

Honestly, I'd like to bring in Kathy and Natalie, and I think Erica would too as she said she liked them both, but it's pretty much up to if Nadiya wants that or not. Kathy's AIM has been dead or borked for days though, so it may be (unfortunately) impossible to keep that girl around. Natalie's basically never on when I am either, just like the ENTIRE REST OF THE TRIBE so that's just...bleh. I want to talk to these people, I really do. But they're just never. Freaking. There. Like what the hell?

Gina is...Gina. I like her and all but she never really talks to me so. Jefra, I like her but she's...not even there. And Allie sucks. Like really, she does. She suggested cheating and having someone else do the puzzle instead of Kathy then give Kathy the screenshot so she can post it and I'm like WTF. Erica told me she suggested doing that and I kinda wanna strangle her? Like that's cheating. Screw you. I've never had anything like this happen before(although I have only played one ORG but still omg this is dumb) but this game seems to be overrun with cheating assholes.

Like Jonathan apparently has been trying to talk cross tribe with Nadiya and it's like omfg screw you. I wish I could talk cross tribe because this tribe sucks but I'M NOT DOING IT. Screw that prick. I hope he gets voted out. Because somehow we won immunity. Like omg I'm still in shock. I was SUPER DUPER FREAKING BAD in that challenge holy heck. That was my worst challenge performance ever, I think, and I was totally embarrassed. Kathy and Natalie didn't even bother showing up for it though so alol w/e i was probs gonna be safe anyways.

Jefra told me she was gonna vote Natalie if we lost and I was like lolokay I understand that because Kathy's having problems and Natalie isn't, so. Thankfully though, I guess Coach keeled over and died, because that's the only way I can comprehend us somehow winning in that challenge. Because frankly we kind of sucked and had 3 people not even DO anything, and then after Frosti quit(yeah he quit btw lolbye one less person in my way) we were able to have someone run it twice, and when Allie suggested it Jefra was like "NO WE ARE IN THE LEAD COACH HAS 100 LESS POSTS" and it's like, uh, sweetie, they can catch up, you know. We may as well try because winning is nice. But no. Apparently she wasn't for that and decided to just go to sleep.

This tribe sucks so much omg me and Erica basically prayed for a tribe swap or mutiny or SOMETHING and thankfully that might end up happening because next round is F14 out of 18 and that's usually a "swap number" and I'm hoping for it tbh. I just don't care for this tribe, I don't feel the love from it and I just want out. I want to meet people who are actually able to hold a conversation. Erica and Nadiya are the only people worth shit on this tribe because they're the only ones who actually talk. Kathy I can forgive, she's cool when she's there but she's just not able to be because of internet problems. I feel bad for her bc I honestly like her out of game, but oh well. :\

The rest...they don't even make an effort. I'm just so done. I've stopped trying to have conversations at this point because it's like, what's the point? They're not gonna ever say or do anything anyways. Like...it's just wow. This tribe is just a miserable failure and not in a good or entertaining way. It's just the most boring tribe I've ever seen and I hate it so much I hope these chicks do something for once but it's not looking likely. I get that people have lives BUT STILL OH MY GOD THIS TRIBE SUCKS.

I just want out.

I really don't think next round is a swap unfortunately, because of the alpha's twist...I think I'm stuck with this tribe until merge and that makes me want to cut or something. Blech.

[Ashley Underwood]

I'm praying so hard for a swap right now. This game is so boring. Me and Erica are honestly considering flipping on a swap or merge just so SOMETHING FINALLY HAPPENS. I want to have fun. This game isn't fun. The hosting is great and everything, but the fucking girls are terrible and this game is so inactive and I just want it to be spiced up. If it isn't a swap we're basically just going to stir shit ala Danielle just for the lulz so something HAPPENS HOLY CRAP.

Like Natalie came for me for an alliance yesterday and I'm like lalala sure whatever, she's nice and all but I don't care. I want something to happen. I don't care if whatever I do is stupid, this is boring and I'm praying so hard for a swap. Nadiya and Erica both think that there's gonna be a swap tonight, so hopefully that actually ends up happening. I'm flipping. I'm so bored. I don't care if everyone hates me and I ruin my shot at winning. I'm. Bored. So I need to freaking just make something happen. I don't even CARE about winning at this point, I just want to entertain myself.

Nadiya wants to vote Jon out as soon as possible at a swap and I don't want that, I liked Jon so yeah haha, whatever. I'm flipping no matter what if there's a swap, I can't handle the apathy of the Taytay tribe.

Like I'm so happy that tribe voted out Penner by the way, like thank JESUS. He was an obnoxious twat who thought cross-tribe communication would be cute. Yeah, no, it isn't, screw you.

Please let there be a swap. I'm just going to be the most obnoxious bitch ever on purpose. Fuck winning.